Wednesday, December 14, 2016


Christmas is over and I have a wonderful family day back in my hometown, 7 days is just nothing for me, but in that 7 days there so many things happen to me. confuse me and hurting me badly.

A day with a long lost friend, with his best friend, It's started with a beer, conversations, and joke.Before we meet, My friend had told me earlier that his best friend will join us and told me that He is a Gay, well for me, it's nothing. I am okay with that actually, even my best friend also a GAY.
At my 1st eye to eye with him, my heart pumps a beep, and have a cold feeling ..hahaha well maybe it's just a shy feeling cos our 1st-time meet, and it's really weird that time.1 hour sitting and drinking beer with them, feeling high and shy feeling gone. well, this is my 1st drinking beer actually. I mean to drink beer. I'm a liquor person and I hate beer ...

Jokes and beer, games and laughter, we forgot how much beer we drank and we didn't even notice it's already 1 am.  if I am not wrong, we started to drink from 8 pm. My head really heavy that time, my stomach feel wanted to burst. that's the reason I don't really like beer because the Gas makes my stomach bloated. 

Cut the story short, we finally ended our morning at a bar or club, but I really don't remember how we ended there, I just remember that we did order 2 more towers of beer, and I drank too much of it. too much until I can get my ass from the sofa and dances. I normally won't dance, but this time. I did, hahaha ... 

An independent and single life for 5 years, of course, I can take care of myself. even I am drunk. I still can't take care of myself. 2 to 3 hours inside the club, I barely remember what's happening. I saw my friend already sleeping on the sofa and his gay friend is already dancing on the stages. he is over drunk already because while he dances his favorite move, he draws attention to all the ladies down the stages, well, they offer him drinks, I think it's 3 to 4 table offer him drinks.

Half awake but I manage to think straight. our 2nd tower of beer not even half of it, but my friends don't want to go back if the drinks not finished cos he said its wasted. So I drank it almost half until my stomach cannot receive it anymore ... it's really silly when I think it back, Lucky 1 guy come and approached me .......... really can't remember what he talked to me. All I can remember is he help me to finish the beer. hahaha hahaha thanks to him :)

to be continue ...................

Tuesday, December 13, 2016


Christmas is coming , and still I haven't do shopping for all my family back hometown . Few years working in other  people country is really challenging , no one take care of you , no one border about you life . You have eaten or not it's not their problem . I still remember the 1st time I reached here . With little penny of pocket money . But that is my greatest memory that I really can't forget about it . Just imagine i come with$156.45 in hand , a big luggage and a almost dead smart phone ( it's Samsung ace ) . 

Since I was young , I learned so much how's life difficulties , every month and every semester of my school fees my family can't afford it . It's almost every semester my Teachers and my lectures will give me a notice for the school payment . But , we never slept with hungry tummy . My parent always do the best to feed us . But for more or other expenses , not really that afford . 
My farther is a taxi driver , with that slow income, and life expenses to high . Really can't blame my dad . My Mom , is very hardworking woman in the world . I really admire hers forbearing. The way she's Handel our house problem . Over calmness . She always wake up so early to sell her goods . She's the reason our dinning table always have foods to ate . 

One day , my Father had accident , he can't walk , for 2 years . My Mom started to worried , all of us still young and still schooling .I still remember on that year I was 14 years old . And I was the oldest child in my family . We have trouble to had foods started that day . Because my Mother can't drive . She need to do selling , and it's really need a car or a van to bring her things . My Mom is really good saleswomen , she really knows how to convinces her customer to buy her goods . At 1st , my mom can't get any driver or taxi that can sent us to market . Most reason that we get is far . But my Mom knows that they don't want to sent us because they scared been fine for overloaded . 1st day without my Father sending us to the market , me and my Mom minimise her goods so we can carry and take a bus to the market . It's took us 1hour 45 min that day . While in the bus , me and my mom just kept silent , the bus engine was so loud .  I saw her tears drop . And i ask her why ? She answer me , ' how we gonna earned today , ging? We only bring few sets of Curtains and few sets of bedsheets .'  I had no answer . I am not really sure what to answer and I prefer to be silent . But thanks god , on that day . I am really not sure , how can our goods all sold and we have more pre-booked for next week . We were really Glad that day . I still can remember the joyed and relieve on my Mom face .

Years by years had past . I also had complete my diploma  for 3 years without retake my semester . Well i am not that clever , but I never missed my classes . Everything was fine until my 3rd semesters . I unable to pay the enrolment fees . I was called by the head of the collages ,and he told me that if I can't pay this semester fees , they will terminate me from the school .  Worried and panic , but I can't do anything . I know my parent can't do anything too . I won't allow them to loan for my study . I won't let them worried about this . I decided to tell the truth to my principle . "Sir , i am really sorry , I really can't pay this fee sir . It's okay if you Want to terminate me . " he kept quite , and scrolling up and down his document , printed few document , it's look like my result.  Not really sure what is he thinking about . It's almost 10 minutes of silent . He finally staring back our conversation. " tomorrow please come to your class , and don't ever missed your classes , study your best . Get a good grade and graduate . " I was confused yet happy to hear the news . I ask him but how ? But he just answered me " just do what I said." And he passed me a document . Once I left the office , I opened up the envelope , its was my result and also a receipt . A receipt that stated "PAID" enrolment semester 3 . My tears drop , really can't explain how happy and Glad I am . But still confused. And after the following semester , I had no problem for the enrolment . I just start my class like others do . Thanks to my principle , but for sure until now , it's still in confused mode . :) 

To be continue ..... 

Really sorry for my grammar . Honestly , i am not good in writing . Hahaahah